"if that was my true self, then why did it take so much work?"

A teenager hesitating on the precipice of transition asks r/detrans for advice:

I'm 18, identify as a guy and have been out of the closet to most of the people I know for about 2 years. I'm pre-everything. I wasn't sa'd as a child nor am I autistic. The waitlists for any type of treatment for trans people are extremely long here, so I really didn't have…